Growth

I thought cutting them off would be the end of it. I blocked their number. I muted every chat. I stopped showing up, stopped explaining myself, stopped playing the exhausting game. Finally, I could breathe. Or so I thought. But somehow… somehow… they were still everywhere. Watching my Instagram stories through fake accounts. Asking my … Read more

Narcissists feed on emotions the way fire feeds on oxygen. Every sigh, every frown, every defensive comeback, they drink it in like fuel. I know this too well. How? Well, I grew up with a few and dated one! Growing up, my toxic mother could turn the simplest conversation into an emotional minefield. I tried … Read more

“I didn’t go no contact right away. I stayed. But I didn’t play fair anymore.” That’s the truth I rarely said out loud. Leaving isn’t always simple when it’s family, when it’s your mother, father, or sister. The bond feels heavier. I stayed, not out of love, but out of guilt, obligation, and exhaustion. But … Read more

There was a time I thought if I just asked “why” enough, eventually my mother would tell me the truth. Why did she lie about me to our relatives? Why did she pretend everything was fine when it clearly wasn’t? Why did it seem like she cared more about how things looked than how I … Read more

I still remember the first time I almost spoke up… and didn’t. It was after a family dinner where my toxic sister made a degrading joke about me. Everyone laughed. I forced myself to laugh, too. That was always the unspoken rule in my dysfunctional family: don’t make things awkward. Don’t make it worse. But … Read more

I used to think healing meant moving on without looking back. Smiling more. Forgiving faster. Acting like none of it touched me. When I went no-contact with my narcissistic mother, the person who raised me to believe love was conditional, I thought the hardest part was over. I told myself I was “fine” because I … Read more

Narcissists Aren’t Fearless. They’re Fragile. Yep! For the longest time, I thought narcissists were untouchable. That their silence meant strength. That their indifference meant power. I assumed they didn’t need people the way the rest of us did. But it wasn’t until I started pulling away from my narcissistic mother that I saw the truth. … Read more

“Why didn’t you just leave?” If you’ve been in a narcissistic relationship in any way, shape, or form, whether it’s family or partner, you’ve heard this question. It sounds so simple, like walking away from abuse is as easy as packing a bag and closing a door. But when you’re living it? It’s never that … Read more

Everyone says, “Just go no contact.” Cut them off. Block them. Walk away. But what if you can’t? What if the narcissist you’re dealing with is your parents? Your boss? Your ex you have kids with? Walking away isn’t always an option, and pretending it is only makes you feel more stuck, more broken, and … Read more

The day I finally cut off my narcissistic family, it didn’t feel like freedom. It felt like grief. And panic. And guilt so thick I could barely breathe. I remember standing in my kitchen, staring at my phone after blocking both my sister’s and mother’s numbers, hands sweating, breathing heavily. For a second, I almost … Read more